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05-01-13

頭超脹的開始一天... 好像是Hang over..的感覺..

忍不住想要抱怨一下

還好有人陪我說說話, 把我的attention 轉了一下

 

10:51 pm

今天的狀態不好. 工讀生也沒來. 事情也做不完...

頭痛著把事情了結, 下午回家休息了一下.

然後五點多就結束工作了

今天的主題是看大尾盧嫚... 真的有夠好笑.

看完後, 居然突發奇想想看新版101次求婚. 真的進到心理, 真的有感觸的居然是這個復刻版的
日據經典.

黃勃的演技精湛... 不用多說

林志玲的美麗, 還有眼淚... 膚淺的刺著我的心. 驚人的把劇情電進了心理.

外表在於愛情裡該佔多少份量.

或許現在還很在乎. 但是在過幾年? 真的有恆心去維持嗎? 真的該再努力的別讓頭髮減少,
真的該在努力的減肥, 真的該繼續抓著頭髮............?!

真心難得...........

外表的凋零遠比我們想像的快.

唉. 外表的美麗易見, 但內心的美麗... 學問很大.

我呢? 學習中.... 學習愛上一個人的心. 但不喜歡複雜的我, 怎麼能容易的去分辨呢?

再度的跌跤,再度的爬起... 笨方法....

只能繼續用

 

頭痛啊. 美麗的天氣.... 我們錯過了什麼.

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4-30-13

8:13am

一個被一堆簡訊吵起早上... 明明昨天看"罪美麗"看到兩點才睡....

阿.. 又是個該喝咖啡的早晨

今天都是一些零碎的事情.

心情很穩定, 睡的也不賴.... 就是付銷售稅付的有點不爽

呵 So far so good....

11:25pm

好累... 從 Staples Center 看完 Clippers vs Grizzlies 的球賽.

好像記憶中如過自己有出現在clipper的比賽, 他們就沒贏過????

呵 ... 今天趕了很多的訂單出去... 有些疲憊... 有些事情要處理...

亞洲的訂單的事務太慢.. 不是很開心.. 老爸不是要回去幫忙的嗎? 怎麼都沒進展...

@@ 疲憊的時候會控制不住自己的心

我這樣的人真的不合適感情.. 你看... 這樣在追求和曖昧不明的情況..

我總覺得空和思念.

這樣不對啊...

原來我的生活是空的, 堅強的經不起打擊...

呵.. 努力的希望理性能夠戰勝衝動.

眼睛都快張不開了..........................................

 

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4/29/13

6:19AM ????

我應該是生病了.. 越來越早起... 這是種思念的病嗎(大笑)

真的太詭異了, 在經過這麼少的感情問題... 我還是莫名其妙的陷入了種莫名其妙

問題不在她, 而是我. 太好笑...

不能夠前進, 也不是 quiter...

I need to find out how to stay where I am and how to love.

既然睡不著, 那就起來上班嚕

oh... 昨晚看"罪美麗" 看的大哭... 親人..

真的不能留下遺憾與誤解.. 想到阿媽.. 有點不能自己

 

早上洗澡才, 想到的... 我很少紀錄快樂ㄝ... 原來日記是用來紀錄非快樂的事情.

不是嗎?

大疑問

 

2:43pm

累了, 從Downtown回來超想睡........

但看來好像沒得睡了

果真忙到五點... 送貨出去後... 回家累攤

吃點東西, 然後睡到八點...

十點去游泳... 累到自己人妖線都快出來了...

聽到她不舒服(不是不該打擾她?) .... 唉.. 心疼, 不喜歡自己的無力.

 

11:53pm 滿滿的一天

 

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  • Apr 28 Sun 2013 21:23
  • Day 5

04-28-13

六點多早上, 被台灣打的電話吵醒....

呵.... 接著有點睡眠不良了...

1:40PM

 

看了一部電影. This is 40

感覺這就是愛情的寫照啊.... 呵... 全部的事情都是一團亂

 

檢討, 並且修改日記. 把對於"愛"這樣的課題與問題拿掉了一些.

因為, 對方沒有意思..(我猜),所以一切會變成騷擾.

呵... 白痴

這就是我不該碰的人生習題. "我是誰" 或許不該從此得知. 呵. 無解的習題.

我還有時間去找答案.

 

10:30pm

 

邊看著罪美麗, 邊運動... 一度流下淚.

親情

感人

下午去了趟Frys and BestBuy... 買買貨.

晚上陪老媽看看電視.............

 

結束了今天...

 

胸口悶悶的

 

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04/27/13

早上六點多, 被鳥叫聲吵醒.

大概是因為有運動的關係. 睡眠的時間變短.

呵....

開始紀錄人生, 就越發現有多無聊. 但知道自己越是能夠忍受, 未來就會越精采

希望

大舅在粉絲頁上放防小人鞋, 並且用英文表達那東西的用途.
哇, 這樣可以開始宏揚風水文化了.

 

今天跟Tracy 去lunch... 聊聊這兩個禮拜的事情.

她說我的追求基本上是騷擾.

遠距離的騷擾, 誰知道對方的那頭收到我的簡訊是不是OOXX的搖頭, 不知道怎麼回.

呵.... 真的... 我的確在害怕這樣的事情. 不過, 這就丟給對方去解決.

我相信她可以很好的, 拒絕我的騷擾. 不過, 我該收斂一下... 追求不該讓對方有壓力.

 

送他回去飯店. 我往海邊開來. Hermosa Beach 一往如昔. 大太陽, 冷冷的四月風....

坐在海灘, 看著大海. 想著這個人......

 

然後回到starbucks回信, 回到正常的生活.

 

look up... don't routinely look down when you walk.

I can see what's blocking my road... yes.. but i will miss what in the sky...

What's in that beautiful sky? I will not know unless I practice looking upward.

 

11:22pm

喝了太多咖啡, 晚餐吃了吐, 游泳完差點昏倒.. 呵... 真的昏倒就太丟臉了... 今天剛好有年輕的女生..起來後, 也是吐了些酸酸的東西...

呵.. 我有時候真的不是很會照顧自己.

 

但總是做到了不浪費每一天....

 

 

 

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  • Apr 27 Sat 2013 00:52
  • Day 3

04/26/13

一早來starbucks, 吃吃早餐, 回回信, 調整著庫存.

天氣很好

對比著昨晚的冷....

冷的睡不著, LINE上面不斷有人敲押敲的. 今早也是一樣的早起.

這是我新選擇一個比較健康的生活型態....

希望在事業,身體, 感情上都能夠正常的微調...

 

下午跟小第一起去拿貨. 跟一直幫著我們處理貨物的小姐交換了facebook.

呵. 但這一等就是一個小時...

這實在是有些為難.

時間這樣的過去. 我心理的那位小姐在一個特別的時間跟我說晚安.

在等待的同時, 心很暖.

大陸的貨也到了, 測試著樣品. 希望這些東西能為公司多帶些利潤.

吃飯後, 出來運動.

把兩年的membership遞進去... 又準備在這兩年在這個地方消耗體力.

踩著運動器材, 看著"罪美麗", 想著心裡的人.

罪美麗的情節, 演到癌症媽媽回家... 眼框不由自主的紅著...

愛. 沉重與甜蜜.

我用著自己喜歡的方式去愛. 喜歡正在喜歡著她的自己.

雖然用最大的能力去揣測她的底線... 但終究是用著自己喜歡的方式來喜歡

不知道這種喜歡是否是她需要的

遠距離. 留給了我自己和她的個人空間. 很好. 所以用心的把她放在心裡.

對結果沒有得失心, 只是想純粹的好好喜歡她.

她讓我喜歡的很容易.

 

 罪美麗 的愛..

 

很想依賴

 

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  • Apr 26 Fri 2013 11:13
  • Day 2

4/25/2013

昨晚下了雨, 早上冷的要命....

真的不像前兩天的大太陽天氣...

LA 的陰晴不定.

 

一大早戴老媽回成人語言學校補考試. 說是要去幫學校爭取聯邦的補助.

回到公司, 整理著亞洲Yahoo Auction, 露天拍賣... 等的事宜, 也繼續看著商業週刊.

淘寶... 我下個目標. 在商周裡介紹著... 的確是很吃驚的營運數字

下午就去拿拿貨, 幫朋友敲定的倉儲, 物流的事宜. 也繼續為了平板電腦的買進,推銷與Grace討論.

一切.... 正常的走著.

 

接著回公司做訂單, 出貨, 回信..

 

呵.. 值得一提的是, 我又花了369塊買了兩年的健身房合約.

又可以開始運動了.

只是想不通... 把自己吃胖, 還花錢花時間去運動的道理在哪..

 

和朋友的交流繼續著. 喜歡與她Line著... .

呵... 這段路會很長...

老實講, 我分不清楚她是不想拒絕, 還是純粹的覺得我應該不會撐很久.

沒有發脾氣的花時間跟我聊天.

淘寶, 需要有食品通行證.... 這點麻煩了... 是進還是退...

 

待續.

 

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04-25-13

盯著電腦一整天, 有點疲倦. 

選擇結束這天的方式居然是開了電腦寫起日記. 

這實在是有點弔詭. 呵... 我的人生真的是自己都摸不著頭腦的無理.

突然想在這個開放的地方, 寫下不該為人知的心情日記. 呵.

希望能夠持續著維持紀錄自己的生活, 不再只是那種情情愛愛的憂鬱日記.

4/12從台灣回來. 已經快兩個禮拜了.

心裡總是有一片地方留在那裡了...

 

今天晚上跟Roger哥吃飯. 談論著回台灣, 去大陸的感想.

我說我覺得自己越來越知道做生意為什麼是做人的生意.

忙碌著幫朋友, 親人們整合資源, 找出路. 也在中間建立自己的人脈,市場. 

更了解自己該做些什麼.

回來的這幾天都在適應我本來該有的生活步調.也在找著新的步調.

緣分,找到了一個覺得值得追求的對象.雖然時間與空間有差異.
但覺得自己很早就想有這樣的機會在忙碌之餘有個傾訴心情的對象.
有個可以雙方都有自己很大空間的感情關係.

這段緣分有點扯,也不是很有信心是否彼此有同調的感覺.
但成熟,大方的她,有著異常吸引我的地方. 

facebook可以看的出端倪.

人緣好,工作認真,喜歡小孩,和家人的關係和睦...

處理告白的方式也讓人微笑...呵..微笑著...

只是我追人的能力異常的弱,這實在是有些不安. 

我所說過的愛人能力....

 

我非常的欠缺.

 

但年紀有了,追過的人,愛過的人,通常也保持著很好的關係.

面對感情,的確比起那個天真的人,來的進步許多.

追不到,也通常多了個可關心的親人,朋友....

這點....真是不幸中的大幸

 

人生,現在開始另一個階段~

 

 

待續著

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    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